Memories that you don't remember

Memory is something that happen only inside us. It is recorded by our own filter, and may change through time.

When my ex-boyfriend, who I spent nearly 5 years with, felt to the sea and never come back., I suddenly lost almost memories of that time. As he is the only people I spent time with, I somehow forget who I was or where I have been in that time. 

Many years has passed since that trauma, the more I try to trace back my memory, the more I confuse. When the memory is clear, I'm questioning my own mind. That 5 years of my early 20s is an blur, uncertain, broken memory. The memories that stay deep under the water.